I’m hoping this post finds you safe and healthy.
Last week, I felt like I was on an emotional roller coaster. This week, I hit the wall. It began Tuesday, when I lay in bed for over two hours after I got up watching the clock tick off the minutes. I couldn't move. I kept lying in bed, thinking "what's the difference if I get up today? I have nothing important to do, nothing to look forward to, nothing worth getting out of bed for." I didn't want to talk to anyone, I didn't want to do anything. The support I was getting from family and friends didn't help. I just felt nothing. Total apathy. Dead inside. I couldn't muster the emotional energy to do any of the things I know would help me, like restorative yoga, meditation, connecting with friends, exercise, eating well, etc. And then I remembered what I did last time this happened to me 3+ years ago.
I had been pushing myself to "get back to myself" after the train crash. One day, I woke up and couldn't move. I had no energy and felt complete apathy about my life. I just felt nothing. I remember feeling like someone had unplugged me from a socket. The shock was just too much for my nervous system to handle (on top of all my injuries). I did the only thing I could - sleep off and on for 3 days. I slept, ate a little, and didn't do anything else.
I think that's what happened to me this week and what's happening to a lot of us who feel unmotivated, apathetic, and drawn. We have been living off adrenaline these last few weeks to make the changes necessary to stay safe and healthy, work remotely, pivot our businesses, support our parents, children, clients, and community, and even just get food in the house! Not to mention fighting our fears, being bombarded with information overload, and trying to manage all of the uncertainty of what we need to do and how long we'll be in this situation. All of this newness and adaptation has taken an enormous toll on our nervous systems. We need to STOP and RESET so we will have the stamina to continue for the weeks and months ahead.
Next week, I'm going to send out a post a day with a short self-Havering video and other resources to help us all down-regulate our nervous systems and RESET so we can keep going with hope and resilience over the long haul. I'll be providing resources to cultivate these emotions:
Monday: Feeling Peaceful
Tuesday: Feeling Supported
Wednesday: Feeling Grounded
Thursday: Feeling Hopeful
Friday: Feeling Resilient
I hope some of these will resonate with you and give you support and ideas for your own reset. And feel free to email me at Elena@MetamorphosisHavening.com if there are other feelings you'd like to cultivate so I can try to put out some resources for those, as well (or at least email you back with some ideas).
So be on the lookout for Monday's resources.
With love and support …
Certified Havening Techniques® Practitioner
Metamorphosis Havening LLC